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Sunday, February 28, 2010; 6:23 PM

End

Last day of CNY..commonly knwn as yuan xiao jie or even eastern valentine day...i thk evry1 knw y it been knwn as eastern valentine day rite??..back to d topic..2day..is as usual calm with a bit of quarrel i thk..no matter wat...i really doesn't wan to remember it anyway...normal morning..wake up..hv my breakfast..n so on..watch the notebook..another movie frm d novel of Nicholas Spark...love story oso..will help in my writing i hope..haha..c-ing d movie..phone low batt..go charge phone while taking nap until ard 3pm..den thgs strted..seems like no rule is obey tis time...if one of us on fire..d othr one shouldn't..bt 2day..it seems like..both of us r on fire dy..so..nv mind...i leave it to time...irrationaaly quarrel doesn't brg any help..wanna knw d reason??dun ask me i oso duno y..jz feel frustrated n so on....evry of my post...even is jz 4 fun i post been questioned...4 me who jz wake up..i was completely nt in a good mood since d whole nap i hv nt sleep well...den..haha...who i am???RICHARD HII...normal human being..n nw i really regret a lot..of evry decision i hv made...i am definitely nt a good lover..definitely nt as good as evry1 say...i am jz dissapointing all of them...all of my friends..all of my family members....they all believe tat i will b a good 1..bt in truth..hallelujah..i am nt..evrythg needa an experience den u wil knw wat yr weakness are..den nw..i completely discover it...i am jz a useless person...jz like to follow my feelings n let my emotional control me....so...chap goh mei 2day rite??wish evry1 as healthy n happy...since is last day of CNY is beter to say somethg good...

Get a good feeling frm my cousin..."may 2012 really is the end of d world"

i understand yr feelings nw brother...hopefully u won't b reading tis post,bro..

Labels: Tiring of living in tis world...

Saturday, February 27, 2010; 9:21 PM

sis birthday

Saturday...weekend hv come...finally..bt i am doing nthg agn...nor my homework..or anythg..jz wasting my time whole day long plying fb quiz n hear songs....while chatting..another boring weekend..plan to study bt no study oso..anyway..a new progress..i hv make my schedule up 4 weekdays..hope i wil follow..if i cn follow it..den i will set up my weekend schedule oso..soon...letz c wat happen d nxt few weeks...2day my sister held their birthday party...BBQ..haha.i completely no help..jz sit thr wait food to eat oni..haha..completely useless...her friends helping her to do d chores..while i follow my mum out to send my uncle to bus stop(he back cbu 4 chap goh meh)....nthg much happen 2day..wif my sis n her friends still plying dwnstair..kinda noisy...haha..n of coz..nw manchester city vs chelsea is going on..haha...really many nonsense ler me...hmm...den..i thk..really nt much..jz i really find out tat..i duno who i am actually..abt my xing ge..i completely duno..hope i will get it someday ba...really a weird feeling 4 nt knwing myself agn..haha..ok..i thk i ends here..really tired..although doing nthg...

Labels: tiring..hearing long n lasting love

Friday, February 26, 2010; 10:18 PM

2in1

Phew..i am back nw...due to some problem i didn't update yesterday..so nw i wil briefly tell some story 4 yesterday...normal class whole day long..n mdm ng finally back..n gives us homework..haha..nt bad...bt really hv a big problem with maths le me...den i guess nthg much happen..until after recess physic class..no lab cn b use wch at last make us ends up in library...den some small smalll thg happen...dun wanna say jz somethg abt academic...bt non of my busness ar..dun ask me ar jun..den afternoon..hehe..maths club..finally v made teacher dance cha cha..haha..really nt bad d game..i thk evry1 hv lot of fun...hehehe...plying bingo wif some othr game...really needa thanks d two idea supplier..yit yung n tze perng....den basketball club..ply a game..6 on 6..20 pts..bt ply ard half an hr..really weak xia lo...i miss mny mny shot...haiz..ends wif a tiring day...

Friday

Mallidurasualah(birthday of nabi s.a.w) tatz y v gt public holiday 2day..morning wake up ard 8am...i sleep 4 12 hrs..record breaking agn..haha..long time no like tis le..den eat breakfast..do my powerpoint presentation...ard 11 go parkson..wandering ard thr while waiting time 4 VALENTINE DAY on 12pm..haha...meet adriana...jia yang...n oso grace...

frm grace thr..i get d info tat..2day d othrs r going mdm ng house bai nian..at ard 9....ok..good i completely duno agn..haha..nv mind...i dun k since i hv a lot of fun watching tis movie 2nd time...i completely get d laugh-ing part..n some part i miss when i 1st c it..nt bad..after movie..go buy wolfman..n den tapao sugarbun..go home..eat...facebook-ing...watch d movie...den do d powerpoint until 10pm jz nw..i manage to finish it..really a huge relief 4 me...d othr i leave to alvin..really needa thanks him a lot since he oweyz is d one who helps a lot without saying any word...

hmm...2molo....will b saturday..my sis gonna held her birthday party..i thk i jz hide in my room jiu hao le.since sure gt mny ppl i duno d..haha..hope they enjoy n my mum dun over tired jiua hao...i thk tatz all 4 2day...n abt d movie wolfman..i really didn't gt much abt wat they wanted to gives...bt overall stil ok..acceptable...i thk mayb is i watch in tired condition tat mades it blur blur 4 me...okie..ends here...will update asap...good nite evry1...hv a ncie dream...

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Wednesday, February 24, 2010; 7:58 PM

Motivating..

Hmm..i am back...as usual nt tat busy today..so i come update a bit....2day..unexpectedly our Mdm Ng no enter class agn..i guess she is really tired..so she no enter eh...since evry1 say like tat...n tis time..i really get d feeling of her tired..since tis CNY holiday..when i back i oso both mentally n physically tired...til nw actuali still half recovering....d shortest assembly v hv tis morning..ends ad 7.15...or 7.20...really early..n kinda unexpected....back class..do some sort of decoration den ply cards agn...really no hope le..anyway..still grateful tat charles..still stdy...n work vry hard.hope he continue his hard work....normal schooling..nt focusing in chemistry class as usual...den pa class...d teacher gives us some sort of motivation talk till overtime..haha..she ask us to hv a dialog abt stpm wif our partner...due to grace..can't talk...becoz of her sick...she still haven't recover yet...may God Bless her ba...itz really been a long time le her sick...den i pair up wif eunice...kinda weird convo..den yen chen n siaw hui d convo...talk till study group..whch at last formed in our class...experty in chemistry=yii ming,siaw hui,charis...in biology=grace..siaw hui..leong..yen chen.......physics=chin..lee wei...eunice...charis...pa=me..leong..grace...den..maths(whch teacher forget)=charles.chin...leong...hahaha..really funny...den d gal strt discuss..while v boys still plying behind thr.....as usual..mr preston no come..so ok ba..suan le..nthg much to do oos..jz plying till d end den go home lo....at home..afternoon...go out hv my haircut...den...go buy chicken wing..prepare 4 my sis birthday tis saturday....she held an party...den go krokop..take my car road tax...back home...having rest....den at nite..updating...still in lazy mode..hope will move on soon ba...despite d motivating talk..i am still nt in a mood to stdy hard...my body jz doesn't move..hahaha...suan le..dun k it ba..as soon as possible..i will force it to move..after tomolo is holiday agn..YAHOO!!!hope cn meet some of my old buddy ba...needa held an short gathering n chat rubbish..hahaha...hope my wish cn come true...i thk i jz ends here...will update if gt time 2molo...byebye...

Labels: Move on...mdm ng..recover soon ar..

Tuesday, February 23, 2010; 8:56 PM

tiring day..

"No matter wat happen..i wil oweyz by yr side" tatz wat mny ppl said..bt hw much ppl hv done tis succesfuly??sometimes.ppl doesn't need yr word to help them out..all they need is jz being alone..or even a pat on d shoulder..tatz enough..mayb u may thk tat it doesn't really matter either u do so or nt...but..it really does means a lot...:D

ok...back to normal life 4 2day...at school...sleep during chemistry class..really exhuasted tis few days..completey nt in a condition ready to stdy yet..duno y...yet d exam is coming..anyway..ignore it 1st...haha..2day Gong Xi Fa Cai ceremony at our school..upper 6 is in charge of it..so a bit bzy wif thgs....ngt some nice performance by us...overall a nice ceremony...n SMK Chung Hwa..lion dance group is invited...really a funny event...especially d two masked ppl...they jz keep on disturb d two "lion"....n our principal ju ran speak chinese..."Xing Nian Kuai le"..nt standard at all d..haha...dun k ba...is fun tatz d most important thg...agree?? den afternoon..gt free food frm d school canteen..really worst food..bt stil cn b eat d..since hnugry n lazy go out ma...later ard 2pm...go help in removing all d decorations of d ceremony...tis time is really faster den yesterday when v decorate...haha..ard 3pm v manage to finish all..well done evry1..i really contribute a little in fact..haha..having group photo after tis..stil in yii ming camera i thk...wait she upload ba..haha....main point 4 2day....i no brg my wallet...so..i didn't have license while i drive...wakakaka....i thk i ends here ba..hope 2molo won't forget anythg....assembly 2molo...hope to update soon agn....

Labels: study mood=closed...

Saturday, February 20, 2010; 8:21 PM

CNY trip

I am back for update..it reali been a long time tat i didn't update...anyway...here i am...to share about my unusual trip to KK during Chinese New Year....

Date: 14th feb-18 feb 2010

venue: Kota Kinabalu,Sabah

14th of Feb knwn as Valentine day...n oso cny chu yi tis year...it really turn out to b a disaster to me..after i find out tat i was sick tat day..n went to columbia asia 4 medicine...den at last...ends up wif having fever...sore throat.. cough....haizzz..really duno hw to say le..a bad strt 4 d year of tiger...be4 going..my grandma says a sentence tat really bombs me a lot..."God let u sick so that u stay at home wif me"...i was like..."err...err.." bt at last i go oso...since..i thk staying at home let me more sick...evryday jz on9 n lie on bed...as long as i cn move...i dun thk i will stay at home..since tis trip is really an important event in tis year....going on board n arrive KK ard 2pm i guess...den went to check-in....sickness really made ppl worst..check-in to hotel..den go 4 a walk to surrounding shopping complex...den when back to hotel..I habis lu....completely feeling unwell...whch lead me whole nite...eating medicine..my mum b d 1 who suffer a lot..since she qalmost evry 4 hrs wake me up n ask me to eat medicine....really thanks a lot mum...d med really made me feel like more ill...since it really doesn't take much effect except d paracetamol...hahaha....whole trip i was like eat-ing vry less...so almost all i cn feel d smell..n taste is med taste....lack of energy really making me down all d trip to KK mountain d nxt day....c thgs...i can't eat...jz cn sit thr half resting while on d way to mountain...thanks God..tat d air at mountain is really refreshing...cold weather....when sitting alone outside after lunch...gt ppl ask me "u frm china??"*shock*"no..malaysia" i oso duno y i answer like tat..haha...anyway..short convo end like tis.....arrive KK mountain..whch i spend my time sleeping n eating med...while watching disney channel...HSM 1,2,3 almost setle all...haha..too boring le...den at nite..v gt steamboat dinner at dwnstair....steamboat dinner..stil okok....i nt much appetite..go back room...eat med agn....my whole trip is like tiring...full of med...den no more....a new experience for me overall...since medicine made me dizzy n cannot thk much...be4 tis trip..i was planning like having a lot of fun..den when back i cn strt focus on stdy...bt evrythg doesn't seems like getting right...intention of God getting me sick..n give me a trip like tis...until nw..i was still wondering abt it...mayb a reminder to me...abt...i oso duno..wait one day...juz trust n accpet wat God gives me....

I uses 2 days to 70% recover frm my sick..d 3rd day i baru fully recover frm fever.bt stil lack of energy...tat day v went dwn frm Mt.KK...to Porin Hot Spring..having canopy walk..n a walk to waterfall oso..a tiring walk..bt i thk i am ok wif it...den after tat went to c Rafflesia..it''s really been lucky tat v cn c d flower blossom..since it rarely happen....itz d 3rd day dy...so..d flower doesn't seems like as perfect as it be..n becoz it was rear by human being..so it been a little more smaller den i expected..bt nv mind..a new thg to knw n learnt most important...can c..hahaha...den really unlucky oso tat day..coz when went dwn d mountain...d bus break dwn..spend a few hrs thr to fix..n so werid..a group of ppl at d road side....c-ing car pass by n by.....haha...3rd day of cny..v hv our lunch at 3pm..really pity of us.....den went KK park..raining....v jz exchg bus thr n went back marina court(hotel)...d new bus driver really is like...xxxxxx....driving skill really is let ppl vomit..plus d aircondition nt function well...almost all of us in d bus wanna fnt n vomit....d whole trip is completely suffering....arrive marina court..most of us straight go sleep i thk..really overtired...at nite v r having dinner at Kpg Nelayan....den tat time...shock news come...my cousin suddenly phone his sis n ask 4 frends number...tat time...he was cry-ing...all of us was like in a schock...den after tat wanna phone him...he oso no answer..v jz recieve a msg " leave me alone nw.."....den after asking some of d frends in cbu...jz knw tat...one of his frend drown tat day....wat a shock especially during dinner to hear tat...den discuss a bit...d 1st time i knw tat...i am kinda lucky tat i didn't hv to find tis kind of thg tis year..n my sick is jz a small case as compared...cn any1 imagine when u lose yr loved ones hw does it feel??in such a young age of 18....u hv to face wif losing yr beloved gal...tat u mayb even haven't..have to chance to say I LOVE YOU to her...fate is really plying a joke on ppl...thr's really no way 4 heading back...evrythg tat cn b done is d memory tat d person manage to gives to us....v treasure it...n keep it deep in our heart....Hope u really get beter ba...n get back to yr normalself as soon as possible....

Experience...really mades me feel like useless...evrytime when such thgs happen all i cn do is jz a listener if ppl wants to talk abt it..i am nt much of a comforter...i even duno hw to comfort a ppl...what i do mostly is..pat d person...prevent d topic...tatz all....really a big discover 4 me....situation did made ppl chg n grown up...bt 4 me..it doesn't seems like chging..except..i am more anti-social den be4 after tis trip...i was like closing myself in my own world..doesn't wants to connect wif d world outside...i feel more safer n comfortable in my own world..n d world i knwn oweyz since i was kid...no nd to scare wat ppl thks abt u..no need to k abt yr images...no need to thk hw cn i dun let ppl feel sad..hw to care for ppl feelings...evrythg is just like carefree...vry free....i have been losing tis kind of life vry long ago....nw i jz wanna to enjoy it 4 tis last 2 days i get 4 myself....

Back to topic...d nxt day..v head 4 island sapi 4 plying....taking boat..enjoy-ing d breeeze...anyway..sapi island is a smaller island if compared to manukan island v go last few years...bt d scenery still nt bad...i went for banana boat oni..whch made me feel like i am more timid as compared to be4....past few year when i ply tis i was like vry free n fun..but tis time..it doesn't..it juz made me feel tired....mayb i thk too much or watever...last time i ply tis i was like dead jiu dead lo fan zheng i hv nthg....if God wan me go tat time..den i jz go...but tis time..tis doesn't work on myself at all..i was still like scare scare...i really doesn't knw y i gt such feeling..becoz nw i dy gt somethg tat i cannot leave??or...is my faith toward God getting weaker n weaker???dun ask me..i was jz trying to figure it out...wait i gt d answer...den i will know....tis kind of feeling at last lead me nt to ply d flying fish...sitting at d seaside..enjoy d breeze...feeding fish...c iguana....tatz wat i did at d island....in fact i wanted to do some reading..whch i succesfuly do a few pages...hahaha...*lazy to read* skip pages....ard 4pm went back hotel..n at nite dinner agn..tis few day dinner really made me scare of somethg..- the prawn!!!!when i c prawn i was like...nt agn!! in fact i gt wan vomit d feel..since evryday gt tat dishes come out..n i really hv a lot of tis during d trip....hv a short gamble after tis i thk..n i gt join 4 a while..wch lost le ard rm1 gua..hahaha..

nxt morning buffet at promenade hotel...eating a lot thr..whch let me feel like nt really well....too mny food le ma..so eat mny lo..kena bomb by my mum..anyway...last day at KK oso tat day.so after eat..went back hotel i go to sleep..while othrs gambling in another to rooms..i did join d last part..whch helps me win rm5 back..haha..lucky ler...anyway..tis year gamble really is nt suit 4 me coz evrytime jz losing..hahaaha....went airport ard 11 somthg...shake hands wif my tour guide..n of coz d driver...den head back Miri....

tatz all for d trip...no pictures provided coz i lazy post up..hahaha...anyway....if too long jz dun read it ba.nt important oso d....:p

ends here ba...bb bloggie

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